Former “Buffy the Vampire” and “Criminal Minds” star Nicholas Brendon, 44, recently stuck is neck out speaking publicly to Dr. Phil McGraw about his September 22 suicide attempt in which he slashed his wrists with a steak knife, a few days before being arrested in Sarasota Springs, NY October 1, 2015, for attacking his girlfriend in a hotel room. He was charged with felony third-degree robbery, criminal mischief and obstruction of breathing when he (supposedly) wrapped his hands around her neck. It was the 4th time he was arrested this year.
His appearance was his second this year, although he ended up walking out of an August taping because he “felt that Dr. Phil went for the jugular, talking about some of my recent mistakes, with no build up.” According to a statement he made at the time on Facebook, Brendon said he felt that Dr. Phil “wanted me to lay the darkest parts of myself on national TV right from the start,” and he was not willing to do that then.” Brendon’s change of heart finally came he realized that he did not want to die.
“I think I wanted to be heard. I think I wanted to be helped, you know?” he said. “Because I think there’s a lot of good life to live,” he told McGraw.
He then went on to talk about a lifetime battling crippling anxiety and depression beginning with his childhood trauma of being molested by a music teacher, who went to jail in 1981, when he was about 10 years old. After the teacher was caught, Brendon said he felt “numb, and then the betrayal kind of came to fruition after it all came out, and then anger.”
“I think about it every day of my life and I wonder how it affected me … did I stop growing emotionally?” he added. “When you’re molested for a couple years and you’re blamed for it by the people who are supposed to be your protectors, there’s going to be a lot of confusion and a lot of sadness.”
He also came “clean” about his addictions including mixing alcohol and prescription sleeping pills (which he is reportedly no longer taking), as well as a long list of violent and destructive behavior that has led to an even longer string of arrests in different states including California, South Carolina, Florida, and Idaho for a variety of charges including felony vandalism, physical abuse, public intoxication and resisting arrest, etc.
While Nicholas also discussed his unsuccessful stints in rehab dating back to 2003, he did check into a dual diagnosis treatment center, HeadWaters at Origins following the interview with Dr. Phil, and finally hopes to turn his life around, while stating that “Maybe I am done now. Maybe I am finally ready to be happy.”