The 73rd annual Golden Globe Awards took place on Jan. 10, 2016, at the Beverly Hilton in Beverly Hills, Calif. Here is what this Golden Globe winner said backstage in the Golden Globe Awards press room.
Best Actress in a Mini-Series or Motion Picture Made for Television
(“American Horror Story: Hotel”)
This is a fan question from the Golden Globes Facebook page. When you started in this industry, did you ever imagine you would be where you are now?
No, absolutely never did I imagine that. I always imagined that I would have a long love affair with music and with art and with reading my books and plays, but I never imagined any of this. I am extremely honored to be in the company of such talented people tonight. I always wanted to be an actress. I went to acting school for many years. This is just the best thing that could have happened to me, honestly.
One of the quotes you have said about “American Horror Story” is how much you enjoyed tapping into your darkness again and how great that’s felt. I think fans really loved you in it. Will you bring that darkness into your music again and we’ll start to see that manifest?
I think for many people darkness is just that, a bleak, empty space, empty and void. For me darkness is an expression about pain and you can create things that are so beautiful. That is exactly the thing I got to do on this show with [“American Horror Story” executive producer] Ryan [Murphy] and the cast. It was thrilling to return to it. It was cathartic, exhilarating, liberating. I would leave the set every day so full of release.
The Countess is very evil. She’s not a good-willed kind of person, but what I do find in her which I am happy to say today is that after 100 years she never gave up, no matter what she went through, and you will fail in this business. The true test is if you can continue and stand up and accept failure and move forward. I learned that from her, and I suppose it will stay with me in my music. I love the art of darkness.
Are you going to be putting on any new music this year? Will it reflect your new outer appearance?
I am putting out an album this year. I won’t tell you when, but it is coming out this year. Will it reflect my outer appearance, that’s a difficult thing to say as I don’t know that you yet know what I will look like for my next album. I am still creating all of those things. It is something that is a gradual change that was always with me. What was nice about playing the Countess, it reminded me in my own life and music I am at times playing a character.
Living inside of her is liberating because she doesn’t give a sh*t about anything. She’s lived too long, knows too much to be bothered by a thing. I am a little bit different than that, but I will say that I think that confidence will stay with me, but who’s to say my music and my position in the world. I only hope to give back as much and blessed things to my fans and to the universe as they have given to me, through my work and art forever.
Have you thought about what an Oscar nomination would mean to you?
Shall we just take it a day at a time, dear? This is a lot. I don’t know. An Oscar nomination would be fantastic, but until it happens to you, I wrote that song [“Til It Happens to You” from the 2015 movie “The Hunting Ground”] with Diane Warren. It was intended to make people happy in a time of sadness when they felt misunderstood. An Oscar nomination would be tremendous, just like this Golden Globe nomination and win is tremendous, but the true win is in the work. I really truly feel that the win for me is always in the creative process. If you can enjoy every second of making a piece with your friends, that is the win. When you are miserable the whole time, this is something else. I know the difference.
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